Saturday, February 26, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
All day this song...
(Where'd I go wrong?)
Pull the curtain, begin paranoia's wearing thin now
It's wearing thin now
(Where'd I go wrong?)
Close my eyes, realize I've become the victimized now
Desensitized now
The one and only day has come
I pay for all the bad things I've done
(Where'd I go wrong?)
Somthing's wrong because I find the glamour in the dark side
in the dark side
(Where'd I go wrong?)
Cheap regrets can't forget falling victim to the debts
still unpaid in my mind
The one and only day has come
I pay for all the bad things I've done
It's gonna take me, you don't know tragedy
I've been to hell and back again to tell it
Close my eyes and lay me down to sleep
I fear the worst my beating heart ticks to explode
And my time is up so...
Why can't I just lie?
The living dead awake, the horror show begins
So pull the curtains over me
Bring on the panic
The uncontrolled and manic
It's a free for all kill them all every last one of them, I don't care
(Well, hey hey hey hey) (x2)
Suffocate the dreams in my mind
(I can't stop believing)
Drown the thoughts that have me confined
(Stop this heart from bleeding)
Gutter dreams as black as the night
No one told me envy is a lie
(Lost in paranoia)
Suffocate the dreams in my mind
(I can't stop believing)
Drown the thoughts that have me confined
(Stop this heart from bleeding)
Gutter dreams as black as the night
No one told me envy is a lie
(Lost in paranoia)
(background)
My last words I'm choking
Are all my dreams broken
The silence is deafening
My ears won't stop ringing
My last words I'm choking
Are all my dreams broken
The silence is deafening
My ears won't stop ringing
Now we're gone do you still feel the same?
Well now, can't you see?
I need help to stop me from myself
Well can't you help me now?
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Booorrred
Song of the Day: Where I Belong - Motion City Soundtrack
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
And thats the way it goes...
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Recap!
Soooooooooo.....It's been awhile. The last thing I think I actively posted about was The Fest...in October...anyway update time. So the fest was damn fun but I don't feel like posting about it this late after. After that I head to NY to visit V, didn't do much just watched CG and walked around a lot...but all in all one the best weekends I've had. Then (one of the reasons I stopped posting) I got myself a girl friend. This was around November. Her name is Laura and I met her at my buddies place during a party. We hit it off and immediately started dating...we recently broke up. It was my decision overall...I really like her and we get along very well...but we both date in different ways and it causes a lot of strife between us, so to preserve our friendship I decided to end it...it been a little hard to get used to but we will get there...we still hang out all the time so its good for the most part.
Ummmm...winter break V had her 21st that was pretty fun and New Year was spent at my friend Allie and Peters place, caught up with a few people I haven't seen since high school. Over the break though main switched between seeing Laura (still dating at the time), V and her siblings, and Odin. It was fun.
Now the heavy stuff...I didn't do so well in my classes...at least not well enough to get my scholarships back. So now I'm living off of 30-40 bucks a week up here and don have enough money to finish the semester. My parents are covering rent but its just not enough and i cant find a fucking job up here to save my life. The hope is that my grandfather with send me some cash to hold me till summer then ill go back home and hopefully work at Walmart again for a few months.
I'm also very worried about this semester, 2 days before the start I had to redo all my classes and it really fucked up my schedule. Between the fact I'm now taking classes I don't care about they are all at inconvenient times. I had it set up for a 11 - 3: 30 day on Monday and Wednesday and a 11 - 9 with a long break on Tuesday and Thursday but i had to forfeit that to make this work. My history class is optional attendance, which makes it hard to want to show up at 8: 30, but i need to if i want to keep up with the essays...which are not my strong point. I have a Art history class which is 3 hours long and boring as fuck with an essay due next week that i don't even know how to start and my music theory teacher is a bit over zealous with assignments as well. the only class i have a handle on is my Intro to AV class because u are graded on our hands on work in class and i can deal with the tech.
I'm really nervous I cant keep up with the work load and on top of that I cant concentrate at all this semester for reasons unknown so shit is creeping up fast. I'm 4 weeks in and feel like I haven't done anything in classes yet I feel like I'm missing everything.
I need to get C's in all my classes to stay up here or that's it. Ill have to move home and work there till i save up enough to move out...this is pretty much my last shot at college and its a ton of stress...I just wish I could get around the bullshit and just get my degree, if I wasn't so fed up with everything this would be much easier.
Though not all is bad in my world, Valentines Day is coming up and for the first time ever /I have a Valentine =). Also I turn 21 in march and over spring break I get to visit my best friend CJ and meet the frat bro's Ive been playing video games with this whole time.
Ok I think that's it...no more long post. I'll start up with the Pic of the Day again...I stopped because blogger's mobile posting was not working for a bit but it got over itself.
Song of the Day: Screaming Bloody Murder - Sum 41
Ummmm...winter break V had her 21st that was pretty fun and New Year was spent at my friend Allie and Peters place, caught up with a few people I haven't seen since high school. Over the break though main switched between seeing Laura (still dating at the time), V and her siblings, and Odin. It was fun.
Now the heavy stuff...I didn't do so well in my classes...at least not well enough to get my scholarships back. So now I'm living off of 30-40 bucks a week up here and don have enough money to finish the semester. My parents are covering rent but its just not enough and i cant find a fucking job up here to save my life. The hope is that my grandfather with send me some cash to hold me till summer then ill go back home and hopefully work at Walmart again for a few months.
I'm also very worried about this semester, 2 days before the start I had to redo all my classes and it really fucked up my schedule. Between the fact I'm now taking classes I don't care about they are all at inconvenient times. I had it set up for a 11 - 3: 30 day on Monday and Wednesday and a 11 - 9 with a long break on Tuesday and Thursday but i had to forfeit that to make this work. My history class is optional attendance, which makes it hard to want to show up at 8: 30, but i need to if i want to keep up with the essays...which are not my strong point. I have a Art history class which is 3 hours long and boring as fuck with an essay due next week that i don't even know how to start and my music theory teacher is a bit over zealous with assignments as well. the only class i have a handle on is my Intro to AV class because u are graded on our hands on work in class and i can deal with the tech.
I'm really nervous I cant keep up with the work load and on top of that I cant concentrate at all this semester for reasons unknown so shit is creeping up fast. I'm 4 weeks in and feel like I haven't done anything in classes yet I feel like I'm missing everything.
I need to get C's in all my classes to stay up here or that's it. Ill have to move home and work there till i save up enough to move out...this is pretty much my last shot at college and its a ton of stress...I just wish I could get around the bullshit and just get my degree, if I wasn't so fed up with everything this would be much easier.
Though not all is bad in my world, Valentines Day is coming up and for the first time ever /I have a Valentine =). Also I turn 21 in march and over spring break I get to visit my best friend CJ and meet the frat bro's Ive been playing video games with this whole time.
Song of the Day: Screaming Bloody Murder - Sum 41
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
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